I am becoming obsessed with finding answers for Kara. It's all I think about all day, every day. I'm brainstorming, trying to get to the bottom of what's causing her reactions, and trying to put things together based on other Mom's experiences. I walk in the door from work lately and go straight to the computer and catch up on the FPIES blogs that I follow, check the message boards on the FPIES group that I belong to now and do my facebook thing in between. I hop on the computer every free second that I have, doing new google searches for updated info. I feel like I'm constantly learning yet coming up with nothing. I know my obsession gets frustrating to my family but I am determined to make things right for Kara and feel that I just can't do enough to care for her properly. Everything else is going to have to wait. I'm exhausted yet my mind is running a million miles an hour and I won't stop until we get things figured out for her.
Kara seems to be having a decent week, despite the mommy meltdowns earlier this week. She's actually had a good last two days and I say that hesitantly because two days is about the maximum amount of time that we get for good days with her. She wouldn't drink her bottle last night so I worried about a tummy ache. She was up in the night for quite a while and refused her bottle so I was worried about a tummy ache. She got up this morning and refused her bottle again, so again, I worried about a tummy ache. I brought her to daycare stating she wasn't acting quite right so call me if there are any problems. Kara had a great day, Mommy overreacted. (Go figure!) Tonight she wouldn't eat supper. I caved and gave her a few crackers because I figured it was better than nothing. She drank 4 ounces of a bottle and that was it. I'm nervous something is going on, or starting but I'm trying to stay optimistic. Friday can't get here soon enough!